What if?

Today I have to make a decision that may change my career.

Yesterday I got a job offer from another company. I asked them to give me at least 24 hours to think over and sleep on it. I spoke to two of my trusted colleagues about the offer, as well as to a good friend from Manila (who happens to be in NY this week for her Bar exam) and to my sister. And this is the day that I must have a decision to tell other company that whether or not I accept the offer.

I weigh in everything I can – the benefits, the base salary, the work hours, etc. I’ve even come to writing it down all the pros and cons. Still I have no firm decision yet.

The hardest part is to say goodbye from people whom I’ve worked for almost 11 years. Those years that we’ve been working together, they have become my second family. In spite of some petty arguments in the staff meeting (which is understandable), we have managed to stay friends outside the office building. We’ve learned not to mix personal feelings and work. That is something I didn’t encounter from my two previous jobs.

I hope I will make the right thing. I don't want to end up asking myself someday, "What if?"